Cheers 2015... you were great!

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Hamjambo marafiki,

So here I am, turned 30 this year, my son lost his first milk tooth and he turned five. He is really getting tall by the way...he will be a tall guy :) sorry,  I digress!

I can tell you one thing for sure, 2015 has been a trip. I said that in a previous blog that life is about doing you, right? So I think that I have managed to do a bit of that in 2015, especially after turning the big three zero. I know there are things I should ensure no longer get to me, but I cannot help but react in the worst of ways sometimes. I wish there was a recipe for life, I would have already bought that manual / recipe because wow! it gets there sometimes.

I have a lot of aspirations and hope for the future, don't get me wrong. I however wish I knew when what would happen. The one thing that am sure I cannot do is throw in the towel.  Here is a few reasons why:

1. Life is never easy... Work hard now, enjoy later.

You have to work hard now to make the best laziest days of your life a walk in the park. I say laziest days because when you get older, you are no longer as active to do what ever you used to do when you were younger so work hard now when you still have the energy and your days will only get better with time.

2. If you really want it so bad, go get it yourself

Lets all face it, no one will give you what you want in life. If you really want it, you have to work hard and just go get what ever it is that you want. I have seen this happen to me. I used to want something so bad, then set a target that would help me get it. Once I got it, I'd set a new target for the next thing I thought I "needed " but in reality, I just wanted ..the minute I got that item, the hunger only grew bigger and in all honesty, it felt damn good to achieve the set goals.

3. Don't be selfish, a lot depends on you. C'mon now...

When you sit back and all you want to do is give up on being greater or achieving more, think, what will become of XXX if I give up? That is what drives me sometimes. For me, my son is my everything. This means that I have a lot of responsibilities that are not just all Shella, but also my son's. To me that is very important, to just make sure that " I got him". The one thing that can frustrate me here is if I dare depend on anyone to make that line " I got him " come true. Humans will always disappoint so to avoid that, always do whatever you can to ensure the one thing or person that depends on you is secure.
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4. Live ...Laugh... Love 

So I think that Love is a force! One ought to respect it big time. Love is one thing that just happens to you when you least expect it. Sometimes it happens so fast that you second guess it, while at times, it takes  A     V  E   R   Y       L         O          N            G   time to happen. Either way, if you are patient enough, the most amazing feeling happens at you, within you, outside of you... I cannot even find the words to describe the feeling. It is funny how it even feels like something not real... you have to pinch yourself to see if it is actually real! You have monologues in your head ... "Is this person mine? does s/he know much s/he means to me?? "

That is why , I think, it is such a rare thing. And that hat wins most of the time. Nothing good comes easy. It is easier to hate people, be mean / cruel... than to show love and kindness... many people want the easy route. However, once you fall in love, it is like you have just found out the meaning of what it is to be happy, and alive. To care for someone unconditionally, Nothing matters more than that one person. And when you do find that person ( your Boyfriend, Husband, best friend, son, siblings, parents... Husband ...lol.., yeah I said that twice...) life becomes much more bearable. They are there to calm your nerves just by their mere presence, glance, smile or touch! That is why, my dear friends... Love is , in my humble opinion, a force.